well a lot of people ask me about my quotes, Amma religion, profile pic, etc.....ill give you a story of my spiritual life not too much in detail cuz that would take forever lol.....since i was young, i remember i thaught how do u know this world isnt a dream like when u r asleep? i never understood what this world was or if it was real, and sometimes I would get my dreams mixed up with the awakened state. as i got older things were in the sense of "life" at that time and age. i was always having "fun" with friends, lots of girls, played a lot of sports, and got into the usual trouble but it was fun. this was not a big deal to me at the time and I actually did not care at all, so inevitably it braught more drama and hard lessons learned. Well, things ended up slapping me around harder until I woke up and used the experience for what it was meant to be, showing me what I am not, which at the time I had no clue thats what I was doing. Society has never seemed like the "right" way to live and all the division in the world, including our history, such as slavery, never seemed like the way "We" are suppose to be. So that right there gave me the reason why conspiracy theories were so interesting to me, it gave me the sense of "See everything isnt as it seems or the way it should be" I always had the sense that our truth lies with in the spiritual realm. So, I ended up searching organized religion for answers to why things were the way they are, will it change, what are we here for, and etc. I was a catholic for a long time and was raised in it, not die hard but I soon started feeling very limited in my thinking about it, very limited in life, and thats when I realized the truths and answers I am looking for does not lie within one religion. Nor does it lie outside of me. Six years ago, after one of the craziest days in my life, I believe, I was left with a question that I never asked myself on a deep level. What is the purpose to life? and What is my purpose in life? These questions haunted me for weeks and months as I diligently searched everything and everywhere for the answers. Then one day, after all the researching, I was led to Amma , Unified field theories, and the Law of One series. I was instantly hooked! Something clicked, something kept telling me "Your on the right path, keep going, dont stop here" at first I will not lie, I thought gurus were some people who just spoke out of thier ass, but that was very prejudgemental of me, which I would soon come to realize. After watching the "new age egos failure to be enlightened" (i think thats what its called) everything he said started resonating with me. I started feeling something that I could not describe, but it lead me to watch more of his videos. With each video, my amazement grew deeper, answers were slowly starting to come together. Then, I clicked on the Amma link on one of his videos, and....The greatest feeling of joy, shock, love, bliss, happiness, relief, everything put into one just shot over me. It was like in those movies where you hear that sound "ohhhhh" and the light comes out of the sky like heaven or whatever. Truely a beautiful and awakening moment, the thought "WOW, this is everything I have been searching for, everything that I couldnt make sense of, this is everything I somehow knew in my heart to be true, and look! here it is!!" Like everything I knew but somehow forgot, and seeing this was like a sense of De ja vu almost. Well, After finding spirituality, life has been great. I dont think I need to say another word about this path that we are all on, for all of you already know. All I can say is, that after putting my "knowing" together now, not "belief", I look back and say " You had me for a second! Not no more! We are all oneness like leaves of a tree...seperate and unique but essentially the same and all part of the same life. Though, there is still much to be gained and a lot to let go, I am finally truely happy. With each moment and each lesson, taking each in stride knowing that I am that I am and each experience is a test and a lesson to be learned, I can say the journey is well worth it. Now the focus is no longer on the outside, it is now inwards on growth each day, and soon I hopefully will find my way to be of service to all my other selves and the great one infinite creator. In time.
Thank you all for reading my short, yet long, story. I love you all dearly and appreciate each and everyone of you, for if it wasnt for you this part of I would not be here.